I believe that denial is starting to set in. My mind has now decided to tell me the story of how this is ‘just the beginning stages’ and that ‘I am making it out to be more than it really is.’
I fluctuate between this being something overblown in my mind and then reading horror stories of Chemo, radiation and radical mastectomy.
I am not sure if finding this out before the weekend was the best thing. Not having a plan, not being in control, not knowing the details.
This will be a new experience as I learn to re-prioritize and learn to release control of so much. Note to self: I can’t control what is going on inside of my own body.